Punk Rock Prince™

Monday, February 14, 2011

Take me back to how it all use to be dear god. Forgive my sins father. Why do all this happened to me? One by one , problems came to me like ants coming after sweets metaphorically. How i wished someone knows how it feels like to be in my shoes. Redemption, is all im asking for.Regret, is all that I feel. Shits happened.

1st of all, i put too much hope on her. Bleahs, i realised after my 1st date with her, things slowly changed. We rarely text. The way we talked to each other its like different. She treated me as a good friend. At first i treated her as my good friend too. After a while, i treated her as my sis. But then it soon, slowly change to something that i couldn't describe. How i wish she knows that i like and adore her. I never felt something special after so long. She made me feel alive. Theres lots more to this but im aint' gonna post everything here. 2ndly, last night , i just realized i lost my important file. File where i put almost everything there. My notes, form , homework , drawings and lyrics. Even some of my certs. Hais, it made me realized how foolish i am. Im sucha cb. How clumsy and stupid for me to have left my file on the chair at the KFC on friday? hais. Today in school, i got caught for my fucking pants. My DM said it was altered. So i had to fucking go to the office and asked for rental of pants. So i had to give my own pants to ofice and freaking pay 2 bucks? after taking my pants they still gotta fine me? ok not only that, after changing to the school pants while my DM scolding the others for hair, she scolded me saying the pants are altered to damn tight. What the fuckin hell. its fucking school pants. I told her already its the freaking school's pants and she didnt believe. I explained to her. Maybe it was cause of my big skate shoe that make it looked altered. She said so ? and she was like "i got no time for long story" i got nothing else to say anymore. I totally gave up. The whole day in school, i learned nothing. Really, i give up already. Whatelse could happen? Whatmore shits will i get? Can it be even more worse than this? hais idk. I didnt talked to anyone at all. Loneliness is my companion. And so is cigarettes. I feel like giving up on studies too. Bless me Father for I have sinned. All I ask is for your forgiveness. Remember me as i apart from this world.

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