Take me back to how it all use to be dear god. Forgive my sins father. Why do all this happened to me? One by one , problems came to me like ants coming after sweets metaphorically. How i wished someone knows how it feels like to be in my shoes. Redemption, is all im asking for.Regret, is all that I feel. Shits happened. 1st of all, i put too much hope on her. Bleahs, i realised after my 1st date with her, things slowly changed. We rarely text. The way we talked to each other its like different. She treated me as a good friend. At first i treated her as my good friend too. After a while, i treated her as my sis. But then it soon, slowly change to something that i couldn't describe. How i wish she knows that i like and adore her. I never felt something special after so long. She made me feel alive. Theres lots more to this but im aint' gonna post everything here. 2ndly, last night , i just realized i lost my important file. File where i put almost everything there. My notes, form , homework , drawings and lyrics. Even some of my certs. Hais, it made me realized how foolish i am. Im sucha cb. How clumsy and stupid for me to have left my file on the chair at the KFC on friday? hais. Today in school, i got caught for my fucking pants. My DM said it was altered. So i had to fucking go to the office and asked for rental of pants. So i had to give my own pants to ofice and freaking pay 2 bucks? after taking my pants they still gotta fine me? ok not only that, after changing to the school pants while my DM scolding the others for hair, she scolded me saying the pants are altered to damn tight. What the fuckin hell. its fucking school pants. I told her already its the freaking school's pants and she didnt believe. I explained to her. Maybe it was cause of my big skate shoe that make it looked altered. She said so ? and she was like "i got no time for long story" i got nothing else to say anymore. I totally gave up. The whole day in school, i learned nothing. Really, i give up already. Whatelse could happen? Whatmore shits will i get? Can it be even more worse than this? hais idk. I didnt talked to anyone at all. Loneliness is my companion. And so is cigarettes. I feel like giving up on studies too. Bless me Father for I have sinned. All I ask is for your forgiveness. Remember me as i apart from this world.
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HOHOBA~ Syafiq Matthew Delonge is back and here to stay! HEY HO LET'S GO!
Hey readers, i know i know, its been quite some time since i last blog. Been busy. Heehs! :D alot of shits happening. After N levels, i knew its gonna be damn boring! School is much more fun excluding the part where we gotta stay back, sit still and study. I miss all the troubles me and my friends made during class. I miss the time when during recess me ,Jaryl and some of my friends went to the 3rd floor and pour water to the matreps on the 1st floor and spit at them. I miss being late. GAAAAAAAAAH! I MISS SCHOOL! hahaha. Ok if you guys were to ask me how am i doing, well im great. Just an update, ive been busy writing songs for my band, got upcoming gigs all line up. Still finding job :( . Still riding BMX but not that much. Dyed my hair blonde than orange. Gonna dye red soon. Well had alot of plans too but due to all the stupid gang cases going on, I GOT GROUNDED FROM TODAY ONWARDS!!! Fucking cunt shit mother ass. Gah, this morning woke up at 10, dad at the living room told me about the new case. Now all the police patroling everywhere, they got rights to handcuff those whom they think are in the gang related. Gosh, do i look like a gangster? O.o Gah so today was my last day going out with my pals. Went to sentosa to chillax by the beach. Ok enough update about myself, im talking to Shakirin on MSN while blogging now. Ok so move on to my next part of the blog.
Ok, see that crazy girl above? thats wardah. Shes my new CRAZY FRIEND!! really, shes whacky! Im blogging about her cause she told me to and i already promise. So yeah. HAPPY NOW WAWA??? nyahhaha. She look better and the 2nd pic with her eyes close. You know why right wawa? hahhaa and stop spamming on my wall each ok? i blog about u already. I dont owe u anything already!!! ^^ See you next year in school! OK ENOUGH ABOUT YOU WAWA! Onto my last part of the blog. An emotional one though. :)
Ok, you guys know whose she.. Obviously. Duh. :) Its my gorgeous stalker, Nut-iah binte mazlan. I mean NADiah. :D Well, finally i got to talk to her. Ive been missing her so badly. Ive been saying it for umpteen times, i know. Especially those who are close to me. Ive been saying it for million times!!! Well, we're in talking terms at least. Glad she found someone better than me. As long as shes happy. Last night, i was really really shocked when she told me she still kept the bear that i bought. :) how awesome, im the bear so shes my Mrs. bean! Im praying really hard to god for her to get well soon and speedy reovery. Well, i wouldnt wanna post what happen to her and what sickness she got. Its too personal. :') Get well soon ok nadiah? I'll be there for you through thick and think. Until the day i die i spill my hearts for ya. Im gonna take good care of you. :) OH OH!! and i'll bring you to KFC or LJS one day soon!! promise. :) u'll like so desperate for that cheese fries of yours!! :D my treat. No goofing around pls goofy goober.
P.S. OH YA!! DID YOU KNOW THERE'S SUCH THING AS MACBETH CIGGS??? AWESOME RIGHT?? :D
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HOHOBA!! hehehe Syafiq Matthew Delonge here. Ok its been a long time since i last update. Been busy studying. Alot of shits happened. Its fasting month and it doesnt have much difference to me. No mood for Hari raya too. I still have to study for my n levels. English, MT and SS N level papers directly before hari raya. How to celebrate? whatsmore my brother is at his wife house. Felt so lonely. But nv, im still enjoying my life. Life so beautiful esp when im with my bike, going to punk rock gigs, party, and spend time with family and friends! :D Hari raya's coming soon. This year my baju kurung green colour like what??? gaaah.. nvm. Ok so my band revived. I got a new singer and drummer. Changed my band name to "Crestfallen Isle". Uh huh. My upcoming show will be on the 22nd oct. Cant wait. Ok so im one month away from freedom, 7th oct is my last paper. Once im done, gooodbye st gabriels, hello ITE! :D not gonna comeback for sec 5. But im sure gonna miss my school :( the besst school ever!! Heehs! well just endure. One month of hardwwork and im free. Im gonna work part time and get a new bike and a laptop. Oh! and A DSLR too! :D Im gonna take april intake for ITE. So yeah. Here are all my photos i took with DSLR. Just random photos. Oh! and watch the video below. I wanna get that guy's hair end of the year. MAYBE! coz i'll look like typical matreps. gaaaah~ Oh oh oh!!! before i forget, im organizing a party for all after n/o levels. Everyone's invited. Bring your friends, boy friend, girlfriend, whatever. hahahaha but but i cant guarantee if the food's enough. I will keep you guys update. It's gonna be a punk rock party! :D:D:D:D cant wait cant wait!!! well till here guys. Enjoy your Fasting month and hari raya to all. See you when i see you.
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